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Start
01:25
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2. |
Roadkill
04:40
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I wanna be roadkill
Find me a mile up ahead
Lying there on the roadside
Say "dont worry now, it's already dead."
Pick me up like I'm fragile
Carry me to the nearest tree
Or bury me under gravel
Just deep enough so nobody finds me
I've tried to describe just how carefully I would carry you
And maybe I'm crazy
But some part of me had to care for you
What if I give up too soon
A race horse with nothing to win
Running just cause I'm supposed to
Cuase they bet too much money on it
And I've got nothing to fight with
But I'll do it cause you asked me to
A guard dog with a death wish
In the center of the ring
I lose
Ive tried to describe just how carefully I would carry you
And maybe I'm crazy
But some part of me had to care for you
What would it take for me to be cared for too
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3. |
Used To Be Friends
05:35
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[Verse 1]
I was honest for the second time
I guess that wasn't really what you had in mind
Said that you could like me if you wanted to
Then followed me around until I talked to you
And could you tell that you were scaring me?
Called me crying, said you thought you were in love with me
Cut my hair enough that I won't look the same
Maybe it gets easier in seventh grade
[Chorus]
I’d already had enough then
I already gave an answer and still, it wouldn't end
You didn't care what I said
Guess it was just another rule that you could bend
We used to be friends
[Verse 2]
Even at my best I'm still just small you
Dragged me halfway down the hall cause it was easy to
What a funny feeling when you're pushed around
You don't even know you're falling til you’re on the ground
[Chorus]
I’d already had enough then
I already swore to be the person I’d defend
Carry me to the deep end
What could be worse than having nothing to depend on
We used to be friends
[Bridge]
You were just waiting on the call
I never cared for it at all
You were so hopelessly dissolved
I never wanted you to take the fall
Take the fall
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4. |
Walk Me Home
04:37
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[Verse 1]
After the flood comes
You and I know
There will be waves
Enough to carry you
And when the moon moves us
Out of her sight
I’ll play the songs
Like the ones she dances to
[Chorus]
Oh darlin’
Oh darlin’
Will you still walk me home?
[Verse 2]
It’s gonna rain soon
And pull me back in
Whatever it takes
To fill the shape I'm in
And out of your own hands
And straight into mine
I had the words you’d thought a hundred times
[Chorus]
Oh darlin’
Oh darlin’
Will you still walk me home?
[Bridge]
Can my feet touch the bottom?
Can see it from all the way down
Son of a goddess
Who makes the most beautiful sound
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5. |
Haunted
04:29
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[Verse 1]
I've been moving
In slow motion
Keep the lights on
So nothing comes in
And the prettiest parts are the ones I see
When the lightning starts
Will you know where to find me?
[Chorus]
I was trying
To be honest
I was hoping the house was haunted
I still keep you in my locket
Don't you ever wish the house was haunted?
[Verse 2]
The day I swore I saw an angel
Making faces from the table
Made me question what I believe in
Was it my reflection
Or somebody looking through it
[Chorus]
I was trying
To be honest
I was hoping the house was haunted
I still keep you in my locket
Don't you ever wish the house was haunted?
[Bridge]
I don't have a lot to say
But I'm still talking anyway
I am the master of mistakes
I missed the point you tried to make
And id forgotten what it felt like to be living like you're dead
I am a picture in a movie in a moment in your head
[Chorus]
I was trying
To be honest
I was hoping the house was haunted
I still keep you in my locket
For the day I find the house is haunted
For the day I find the house is haunted
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6. |
Keep The Rain
04:47
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[Verse 1]
I don’t know what steps to take
I do the easy ones until it helps
Little acts of conversation
I don't think I really like myself
Am I comfortable in silence?
Or is it eating me alive
Nothing’s ever really quiet
When you need distraction to survive
[Chorus]
It's part of me
Wouldn't you believe it's nothing?
It's all you need
When you keep the rain from coming
[Verse 2]
I'm already going under
Nothing I can do but sit and wait
Are you really having fun or
Do you like becoming what you hate?
Am I comfortable in silence
Or am I waiting till it ends
Nothing’s ever really quiet
You were just to stubborn to pretend
[Chorus]
It's part of me
Wouldn't you believe it's nothing?
It's all you need
When you keep the rain from coming
[Bridge]
I'm good at letting you go
I'm good at letting it get to me
I'm good at letting you go
No, you were never the enemy
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7. |
Hold You
05:05
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[Verse 1]
I used to feel it when I’d wake up
The thing you never had to name
I made a life I don't remember making
Couldn't just let it stay the same
We look much different in pictures
At least that's what most people say
I used to know the person I took after
I must’ve let them slip away
[Chorus]
Cause I wanna know you again
And I wanna hold you like you needed then
And I wanna know all you know
So I can take what you can let go
[Verse 2]
I turn the pages with the seasons
And leave behind what I can't change
Until there's nothing left that I believe in
I'll leave it just the way it came
I'll write enough that it can hold me
Until the feeling has a name
I wrote the ending but I missed the story
I must've been just out of frame
[Chorus]
Cause I wanna know you again
And I wanna hold you like you needed then
And I wanna know all you know
So I can take what you can let go
[Bridge]
Don't you wanna know me again
Don't you wanna know me
Know me again
Again (3x)
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8. |
Villain
04:49
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[Verse 1]
I guess you thought I could fix the problem
You said, “Tell me all that I’d miss.”
"I dont know but I'm pretty sure it gets better than this"
And maybe I should've stopped believing but I
Really wanted to try
Said I’d saved
While I'm barely staying alive
And I knew it the second you walked the door
Yeah I had a bad feeling
I started a war
I'm gonna fuck it all up
And I’ll probably pay with my life
And I know that you told me
That everything's fine
But I wrote this story before it was mine
And I know there's a villain
But I'm worried it's me this time
[Chrorus]
So fake a better feeling
Take me as I am
At least I'm only making better plans
Turn me into a believer
Make me out as some old healer
I’ll change for the better
And ill even make it last too
For you (8x)
Turn me into a believer
I hardly recognize myself either
I’ll change for the better
And I’ll even make it last for you
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9. |
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[Verse 1]
Do you think about dying?
I wanna know what you would say
And would you tell me if you're lying?
I couldn't stop you anyway
We've been watching movies
And I've been talking to myself
I’d like to think that you knew me
Better than anybody else
[Chorus]
I know you're probably standing there
Wishing that I wasn't here
You know I’d follow you anywhere
So do you honestly believe
That I would let you disappear?
[Verse 2]
I've been sleeping with the lights on
And I've been standing at the door
You were so easy to hide from
But I don't do that anymore
And I fixed up all the broken things
And I've been carefully content
Pretty soon I'm gonna say something
That I’ll eventually regret
[Chorus]
I know you're probably standing there
Too far to fall off the edge
I would've followed you anywhere
Cause if I loved you at the start then I would love you at the end
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10. |
Coming Clean
06:18
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[Verse 1]
Find me in the raincoat you could've sworn you were missing
We dont talk the whole way home
I leave the coat in the kitchen
Let me have a few more months
I'll talk to you when I'm ready
Say “I never got to lose it once”
So I do and you let me
[Pre Chorus]
But is this coming clean
Or am I kicking up dirt where I shouldn't?
And what’s it gonna mean?
I can't fix all the things that you couldn't
Do I just end up losing my footing?
[Chorus]
But I don’t wanna be your angel
Wanna see you cut off a limb
Nobody wins
If I kill you
Would I have to forgive you still?
[Verse 2]
Sterilize the thing you know
Give it to somebody whos strong
Fallout from the glass you broke
There's still a piece in my palm
And just like that, we’re starting over
Just when we were getting it
Fake your death and call it closure
Just like we would do when we were kids
[Pre Chorus]
But is this coming clean
Or am I digging up the bodies you buried?
And what's this supposed to mean?
Am I brave if the noise doesn't scare me?
If I make myself easy to carry?
[Chorus]
But I don’t wanna be your angel
Wanna see you cut off a limb
Nobody wins
If you killed me
I would have to forgive you still
[Bridge]
I would've for it (4x)
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11. |
Dragon
05:05
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[Verse 1]
A dress to be buried in
Take the rest from me
What could I still need?
What is rest to me?
I'll take the city train
To where it used to be
Shelter from the bleed
Of the old dragon tree
[Chorus]
And when the autumn comes
And it starts mending what you took it from
You don’t know the ending
It’s impossible, love
But you keep on trying anyways
Till the feeling fades
The feeling fades
The feeling fades
[Verse 2]
Matches to light the flame
I'll help you burn it down
Even take the blame
We're really in it now
And well plan a new escape
Run until we cant
Story for the ages
Hand in unsinkable hand
[Chorus]
And when the autumn comes with all its endings
Just the bitter ones
So I keep on pretending its impossible, love
To keep you from trying anyways
Would you believe its fate
[Bridge]
And everything’s different
Let me take it from here
It all starts with a lesson
But you dont hear it make any difference
The mission’s never been more clear
We're not all dying here
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12. |
North Star
05:07
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[Verse 1]
Talk to the moon
While I wait
For a ride home
I’d stay but I dont wanna bore you
I guess it can wait
You’ll be there when I get home
You're all I can see from the rearview
Stay right where I can see you
Count all the places I think we should run to
Somewhere with nothing to do
It's always too loud hope the noise doesn't scare you
I dont know what else came before you
You must know that I just adore you
[Chorus]
And I want you to have it all
All you ever needed
The minute that you fall
And I wanna be a savior
I dont wanna need anything
When you're all that I've got to lose
[Verse 2]
Stay on the line I just want you to be here
I still see the light through the window
Wait for the tide to come in
And my feet hurt
We walked all the way on the same road
I promise it won't be too long though
[Chorus]
And I want you to have it all
All you ever needed
The minute that you fall
And I wanna be a savior
I dont wanna need anything
When you're that I've got to lose
[Bridge]
But dont you ever tire of all that?
Picking up the pieces you dont have to alone
When you're the place I wanna go
And if you ever wanna fall back
I'll let you go
But when it's said and done
I’ll be the north star that takes you home
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13. |
Crybaby
04:01
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Is it just like me
To say this?
Just what you'd expect
From the latest
Version
If I knew what it was I would tell you
If the door wasn't shut
I’d let you in
Take your sweet time
I'll give you all of mine
Take what I can get
And let you have the rest
What do I do here?
What do I do?
Am I
Too sad to be here?
Am I
Too sad to be alive?
I dont wanna be
I try
But I wanna stay alive
I do, I do, I do
At least I try to
Want to
Do you have a place for me
Do I have to become smaller
Would you see me differently
If I made myself taller instead?
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Searows Portland, Oregon
Searows is the indie/folk project of Alec Duckart (he/him), a Pacific Northwest singer-songwriter and guitarist.
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